Doing Better

Our little Phin

I am so thankful for the Lord's mercy to me this week, I am feeling SO much better! We are back to our routine and I am trying not to go crazy this week but still give myself time to keep getting better. We have had a setback with the dossier paperwork but are learning patience! Kate sent me an email yesterday asking if we had sent the items that we had to change because the notary had used the wrong language so I told her we overnighted them the Saturday before last. But she had been out of town for three days last week and had her mail held but they put our package seperately from her other items and so she didn't recieve it when picking up the other things last week, and is just recieveing it today after realizing the mix up. It was so obvious to me that the Lord is at work, I am glad there has been previous trials that have been humbling my heart to recieve his much wiser ways than my own. It inclined my heart to worship Him with greater thankfulness today, that of course I am up and able to even change a diaper or cook a meal after such a hard physical ordeal but also that it is apparent HE is at work to even tuck away a package so that His timing is perfect and we are placed on the waiting list and given a referal at the moment he ordains. I have been freed up to realize, what if this adoption takes much more time than we anticipate? What is God's desire for me during the waiting time and the daily battle with impatience and pride in feeling like I should control things and can accomlish things in my own strength? I believe it's Faith. Faith honors God and gives me joy. When I trust that everything is coming from His hand and I can only accomplish that which he designs it drives me toward joy, peace and bearing spiritual fruit for godliness. I read Psalm 34 this morning, listen to these verses for the weary hearted: "I will bless the Lord at all times; his praise shall continuall be in my mouth. My soul makes its boast in the Lord; let the humble hear and be glad...I sought the Lord, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. This poor man cried, and the Lord heard him and saved him out of all his troubles. Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him! Oh, fear the Lord, you his saints, and those who fear him have no lack! The young lions suffer want and hunger; but those who seek the Lord lack no good thing." (Ps.34:1-2,3-6;8-10). Do I really believe these verses? That the Lord is good and therefore can only do "good" toward me? That I will have no lack of grace to bring glory to Him even in the hard things and that when I seek the Lord I will lack no good thing? That implies that I will believe it is not ultimately the best possible thing for us to be done with our dossier at this point and God has been good in restraining our purposes to bring about his own (even in paperwork!). I want to pose to you this question: Have you tasted and seen that the Lord is good today? If you haven't I would encourage you to seek Him through his word and find refreshment before the day is done.