Relief and Rides at the Fair

Well, I could have made the heading to this post "Ouch" but I thought I would title it "Relief". Paul and I got our vaccines this week and I got my physical. I had to get three shots and Paul only needed two because he has traveled quite a bit in the last 5 years. It all went good. It's so funny how you psych yourself out for things to hurt and it's not a big deal at all. Needles don't really bother Paul or I and the end product of all this poking far surpasses the small incoveniences. I also got blood drawn the same day, the nurse did a great job and I hardly felt it. We chatted and it was over in minutes, Paul also enjoyed the coffee and cookie bar at the facility - perhaps his new starbucks? :o) So that's done with and I am glad we won't have to think about vaccines further down the road. I also got a bank statement notorized for our Dossier and started to look at all that we need to compile for that end of things. I talked with our dear helper at Gladney and she gave me more of a concrete timeline and we are looking at November...which is why I titled this post "relief", because that was such a load off now that I don't have to think about a deadline with the rainy season. I will be able to enjoy the process more and Phin will be getting older so it will be easier on both of us when we go get the baby. I don't like to think about that part...leaving my sweet boys will be agony. It's so encouraging to know God's perfect plan is unfolding and we are being called upward to trust him, to be patient and grow in our faith and joy through this process (whether it's 6 mos or 10 mos). I am learning adoption is not just what I want ,though that is part of course, but it's so much bigger than just our plans and God will use all thing for his glory because he has accomplished it. It's kind of crazy with adoption, at least for me, I feel like we jumped on this ride at the fair, lets say the zipper, and it's hard to enjoy the view of everything because your going so fast. What I want is to have the moments where they stop the ride and your just hanging there and you look out and it's so neat and you can see all the lights through the fairground and beyond. I want to pause and reflect on God's goodness, his sufficiency for my needs and that he has me right now every day doing the same old things until we go get baby. I am a wife and mom, I do laundry, run errands and all of this is what God is calling me to each day. To do it all in joy to his glory. Well - next we will be getting our homestudy done, which should be scheduled in the next three weeks, so that's exciting.